Here in this Sorrow

Tim Boyle

Jen wasn’t supposed to see me with Andrea Cummins, especially not after I found out that Andrea just wants to be friends. God damn, I fucked up so bad right here. I thought I was in with Andrea, but she was just leading me on! Shit I nearly kissed her last Friday after school. I thought she wanted me. I might have thrown away a year-long relationship for this! I can’t believe that bitch did this to me! When we were hanging out, she was all over me, touching me constantly. We watched a movie until five in the morning, and she was laying with her head on my lap! What was I supposed to think? All those times she told me I could do better than Jenny, I thought she was insinuating that she was that someone!

I thought I could pull it off smoothly too. I was going to talk to Jenny after school, apologize, and hopefully have everything back to normal tonight. I even thought maybe she would give in and finally sleep with me. Hopefully I can convince her that we didn’t do anything, I mean, after all, we didn’t!

I jump up and run out of the library after her. She’s really hauling ass. I’m yelling for her to stop, but she’s not listening. Nick Caufield is yelling “Spic-Bitch!” over and over again at this Puerto Rican girl and drowning me out. All these kids are circled around them, laughing, as I fight my way through the crowd.

When I lose Jen on the stairs and figure, fuck it, she’ll probably call later. I go back to watch Nick beat up that half-nigger.

Go to Andrea Cummins.